I didn’t call this blog „A Life Quest“ by accident. While realizing that I felt stuck in my life, I became very inspired by the ideas Colin Beavan shared in his book „HOW TO BE ALIVE, A guide to the kind of happiness that helps the world“.
His ideas helped me to discover a new frame, a new way of thinking about my life and myself. It helped me to reconcile my needs to live a good happy life with my wish to “change the world”.
A Life Quest is about the journeys of Lifequesters
In his book Colin Beavan defined a new word, which I love:
- Someone who tries to understand her True Nature and uses that understanding to make a better life for herself and others.
- A person who attempts to live his own values rather than society’s and is excited by what he might discover.
- Someone who has faith that letting go of limiting stories about herself and the world will allow something wonderful to open up.
- A fun-loving, wicked cool person.
The four definitions express different shades of the same core concept: there is an “inner voice”, that when let free, makes wonderful things happen.
When a person – a Lifequester – decides to explore and listen to this inner voice, she accesses the part of her being that feels, is deep-loving, fun and creative. It allows her to feel connected to the own way of being and also to others. It is as if the signals of a sensor, which were ignored by the “control tower” for quite a while, are seen again by Lifequesters. This signals from the inner voice become a key part of their decision-making process.
In the past, I heard that “inner voice”
I remembered that I had heard that “inner voice” on many occasions in the past. As a child it was almost omnipresent: joy, fun, love, but also fear, anger or deception were guiding me. I was living in the moment, not differentiating between you and me: I felt the suffering of my mom as if it was mine. Later in life, I felt this deep connection and feeling of “being alive” when I fell in love: that was when I felt like being one with my partner and one with the world.
Over the years it became more and more difficult to fall in love. I mostly heard and followed this other inner voice telling me what I “have to do”. It was mainly during weekends or after work, in moments where I did sports and was outdoors, that I felt that playful joy while being connected to people and the world again.
Laughing with the team while making a point during a volleyball match, admiring the beauty of the mountains during a hike, or singing a song with friends while sitting around the fireplace. In those moments everything felt “right” again.
I did not want to feel alive just in a fraction of my life
Realizing that the time I spend feeling alive and hearing this voice of joy and love was getting less, year after year, really scared me. I wanted to live a fun, life in which I was a loving person feeling alive!
The idea of being a Lifequester gave me hope. Being a person working on herself, feeling connected to the own centre and from that place contribute to making something good happen in the world was something that made sense to me.
I knew that embarking in the “Lifequester journey” will be an adventure: I would change. I would have to let go past habits and learn to discern and abandon stories society, my family and myself put up to make sense of the world. But as I felt that my life did not make sense anymore, I was ready for that. I knew that I would have to get into this uncertain place of not being anymore who I was, without knowing who I would become.
But I had this hope in my heart, that life would become so much better and more fun if I would follow my inner voice again. I was so sick of feeling half (at most) alive and had the sensation that after all, my work as a social entrepreneur was not driving the impact I really was here to make happen.
I embarked in my Lifequester journey and my heart took fire
As I read the definition of Colin I felt that we can all be Lifequesters, if we decide to. I already met many people that transformed their way of looking at themselves and life. They fascinated and encouraged me to believe that more than what I now believe to be possible, is possible.
Now, over one year later, this tiny light of hope became a fire. I changed my life: I moved to a new country, met a man I love, reoriented myself professionally and little by little do more of what I feel I’m called to do. I work as a coach with Lifequesters, help them to find their path, and organise retreats in nature to provide spaces for transformation.
I feel peaceful and joyful; struggle on how to figure out things; still feel like a hybrid being, some days caught in whom I was, and other days being whom I seek to be. But now I have a clear vision in my heart, of the joyful and meaningful life I wish to live, which is guiding and motivating me.
Thank you, Colin Beavan, for coming up with the Lifequester word and many more ideas.
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